Live out Loud Too Blog

Welcome to the new era.

We interrupt our normal programming to announce that this blogger just become a US Citizen.

 

I landed in this country 10 years ago, with 1500 dollars to my name and an extraordinary  passion to win. At that point of my life, I didn’t belong anywhere. I hated living in Sao Paulo, Rio de Janeiro was never meant for me, and Fortaleza where my parents were living was a no go. I have tried before.

Home is where you heart is

When I arrived in Chicago, something hit different. I wanted to stay and grow roots for the first time in my life. Even during the worst moments, I could still see my future in it.  For the first time, I felt like I belong somewhere. I was not afraid of anything, I just wanted to make it work. As I walked around town, I learned really fast that in America, you HAVE to act like you belong. Just like Anna Delvey, in Inventing Anna, if you pretend hard enough that you belong, they will believe you do. That’s what I did.

I never scammed anybody, but when it comes to Fake till you make it, she got a point.

The minorities like me knows what I’m talking about.

Within 6 months living in Chicago, I had it all. But I also had something my country never gave to me.Confidence. This country is made by people that take chances, that kick the entry door. We suffer, we cry in silence, but we also brush off the dust, every day at dawn, and start over. The minorities like me, knows exactly how to get over situations fast, in order to survive. It’s a jungle out here.

You become a citizen as soon as you leave your country behind and make your way into this place. The rest is just formalities.

The reason why I wrote all that, it’s because I just got my citizenship. I love Disney movies and I recently watched Pinnochio. It resonated with me so much.

Husband said “Hold on, there is one string attached. Its your wedding ring”

Well my bad 🤣 I meant no strings with immigration.

There are no strings to hold me down. To make me fret or make me frown.

After 10 years of having nightmares about visiting my family in Brazil and couldn’t go back in the US, I’m finally out of the lions’ dent. No more wake up sweating in the middle of the night. I’m here to stay.  With all that being said, I will be focusing this blog in a less overdramatic line of writing.

September 2022
September 2012

 

 

 

 

 

 

As this blog has always been about my journey as an immigrant, which I will always be, I will continue to write about my experiences, but I will also be focusing in other projects. Now that the haze has lifted, I want to participate in some writing contests, with Coverfly, travel and dedicate more of my time to the youtube channel.

I’m moving forward to more of Film/producing/ editing line of work. Live out loud too will soon be Live out loud Too Productions. I waited for this moment for a long time. Three years to be exact. I like to think I just didn’t do it because I don’t have a garage. Or because of the Pandemic. I still don’t have a garage, but I will make it work.

Hopefully if you are still reading this, please my youtube channel! I’ve been posting shorts lately, as I couldn’t focus on writing or editing for the life of me. This is the latest short I posted!

 

“Yippee-Ki-Yay, Motherf*****.”

 

See you soon!

JS XXX

Slow Down darling, you are doing fine.

Personal opinion. Not based on any studies or scholar research.

TikTok is too fast for my Millennial brain to keep up. I deleted my account a couple of weeks ago. I also landed on the complaining side of TikTok , which started to look a lot with Twitter, but with visual-audio content. Not for me. Not anymore.

It’s probably because of having to rewatch it a few times to understand whats being said, that content creators on that platform has that huge amount of views. The millennials that has to watch at least 3 times to understand what is going on. Reels creators are just speeding up too. 

Butterfly in the sky, I can go twice as high.. 

Reels is a copycat from TikTok, we are all well aware of that. Mr. Zuckerberg, as usual, wants a a piece of the pie, and why not copying the format and transforming the entire app, in a video app, where they algorithm determines how many videos you have to post a day, in order to go viral? Its all computer science and data analyzes, if you follow exactly what they are telling you, you will succeed. Maybe.

 

Ciao, Bella.

 

I have a hard time following those micro-vlogs. Where they are and why they have to have .05 second frames to show the gelato, the square, the flimsy dress while holding the gelato, the gondola, followed by a caption that says “Ciao, Bella” all that in 15 seconds. I can’t tell you if you are in Italy or The Venetian, in Las Vegas. Instead of rushing, why not show a nice restaurant I could visit, parts of a museum, or how the locals live? It always seems we are in a rush. 

Every frame has to be perfect calculated, on a video editing app, using the viral audio, everyone else is using, with the predicted fonts and filters. It’s all generic and it’s exhausting.  

“Slow down, you are doing fine.”

Thats not me. 🤣

Not too long ago, I read an article about slow content. The manifest has 10 pillars with different items to cover. The article talks about how Quality X Quantity doesn’t matter, when it comes to this rush to sell , promote or inform. We are not made to engage in this algorithm driven society. I read an article this week, on Medium, written by Lisa Marten, where she writes about us defying the algorithm. Make it work for us, because if we keep adapting, we are all going to be replaced by machines.

Try to connect more, instead of posting content like a slot machine. 

My channel logo made on Canva. 

I wrote all that, because I came to the conclusion, that someone or the driven business society, are trying to dump on us this rush madness amount of content, in less than 1 minute, because they realized this generation can’t focus on anything, or have the attention for more than a few minutes. Remember, machines did that to the people’s brain, in the past 10 years.

The analytics scholars trained those brains into thinking that faster is better. Year after year. You can’t waste time on a 1 minute video, when you have another 200 videos to watch. 

I remember when I had to wait for my song to play on the radio, so I could recorded. I’m also from the early 2000’s MTV generation, when you also had to wait and see if your favorite video was going to be on TRL and what position. 

Pillar number 6 : Happiness over Financial 

Our new youtube channel!

Purpose over profit. My purpose with my content, on my fairly new youtube channel is to show a more connected way to engage, while visiting a new city, or a different place. Anthony Bourdain school of traveling. All lights to the heavens and respect to the master. Oh Captain, my Captain. 

The blog has more of a serious tone, and it goes more in depths of my life as an immigrant, than showcasing Colorado small towns, while eating my way around it. 

I write this blog as a manifesto and documentation of my life here in the United Sates. The channel is more upbeat and less chaotic than my mental immigrant issues.  

Don’t stop doing what you love to fit the trends.

Don’t stop doing what you love to fit the trends. Use the audio you like, the filter and the caption you want. Stop trying to fit in, and run on the hamster wheel. We need more creative minds and people exploring different sides of themselves. You know how many times a day I saw people dancing “About Damn time” by Lizzo on TikTok? Thousands. Who got richer? Her, well deserved, great marketing. Who wasted their time  and now hates the song? Me. 

And probably you. 

It was a song about empowerment,  female body positivity, until Paris Hilton, the Human barbie form itself, ended the trend. I got a good laugh of all that and deleted my account. Might be back on a different time. 

I have to say it out loud so the people in the back can hear me:

There is nothing wrong in being creative and take a different approach on your content. Think outside the box. If you don’t fit in on the algorithm, tough. Let the AI work harder. People that like you, will follow you, for your content, because it’s you and not a successful account with a huge following on TikTok.

Hopefully, the Slow Content movement, will bring it back the joy of watching longer videos. Just like the minimalist trend, by Marie Kondo a few years ago. When we started the year cleaning the house  with a vengeance, from what bring us joy and whatnot. 

Hopefully, the slow content will also bring back the following for the people and not for what the industry are trying to sell you.  

Here is the website I found with the Slow Content Pillars:

https://slowcontent.org/

Let me know in the comments what do you think of the slow content movement, and what generational advice you have for the younger folks in terms of taking it slow. 

 

How to write for a travel outlet

 

How to write for a travel outlet publication? I’m still trying to find out for the past 15 years.

During Tourism and hospitality college, I spent countless hours at the library reading Travel Magazines. At that point, while living in Brazil, my dream and life goals were to travel and write to one of those magazines. Not to be stuck in a hotel for the next 15 years, at the front desk, dealing with people traveling all over the world. I should be the one traveling!

I was never meant to get roots behind the desk.

How to write for a travel magazine? Asking for a friend

My favorite magazine at that time was Lonely Planet. It contained the travel guides, which I pretty much became obsessed with and promised myself, someday I would be one of those cool travel writers. I would write the article, take amazing photographs and leave like a Nomad. I just found out they have nomad visas now, since some people are working remotely full time!

At that time, I was also checking the possibility of being a photographer for the National Geo magazine. Little silly 20 years old me with big dreams, living in Brazil. That was way before we have internet access and all this cool things that the technology gave us.

One day I stared a blog to talk about my internship programs abroad, which I carefully and ruthlessly named “Where the hell is Joana?”

“Where the hell is Joana?”

The blog “Where The hell is Joana?” was to write about my experiences abroad, during the 3 months I was out of my country, for the first time ever, while living in North Carolina. My first mistake was: I decided to write in Portuguese, because my vocabulary at that time was rough and kept to a bare minimum.

When I wrote my first post and send it to my mom, she didn’t like it. She wrote me on msn messenger (yes, that long ago) and told me to not expose her or my dad. Nobody needed to know our personal life. I didn’t mean in any way to expose them, its not like they were celebrity rock starts and I was about to drop a major gossip on them.

I just wanted to write!

My dream job in my early 20’s

I would move on to my own adventures in short time. I just get drowned. I tried others posts, but my writing was confusing and random, as I focused more on the plugins and photos than my pieces I was writing itself. I tried again and reactivate the blog during the other internships, until I quit BlogSpot all together in 2009.

No shame on that. Years and years later, the writing got better. After all, this is my second language, I was  born and raised and for my entirely life, Portuguese is my first language.

Life has a funny way to go around.

First I had to learn how to write fictional pieces, learn how to put a storyline, characters arc and development in perspective, until I could actually write non fiction with more confidence.

Again, I always wanted to write travel magazine articles, but for that I needed to learn how to tell a story. I still don’t have a magazine writing job, but I’m thankful we have blogs now. I’m also thankful for being able to document my travels on Youtube. It’s all taking place now.

Blogs and Youtube videos run on the same expectation of being heard and seen, but due to people’s lack of attention, my Youtube travel content is going much better than the blog has ever been. I’ve been learning a lot, especially about SEO and algorithm, so I will write a post about it, probably in the next week.

TRVLS & Comida – Youtube Channel

It’s all in the air now.

I’m working on some youtube shorts, since we are working full time and can travel all time

Maybe I had to go around for a few years or many years before I was able to pursue my long life dream of telling stories while traveling. Maybe some day I will get financed to write my web series, If I ever sit down to write it.

It’s all in the air now. Things actually work, you just have to be patient. And no, you are never too old to pursue your dream. Yes, I get that we can’t just drop everything and focus only on what we’d like doing it. We have bills to pay. (most of us has anyway. Trust fund kids, no)

Hang in there.  It will get better.

See you next week!

JS

XXX

Sincerely, me back from the future.

Dear 16 years old Joana,

This is a letter from the future to tell you: you made it. You are now a 36 year old woman, living in the United States as you’ve been manifesting so hard. I understand now how much you are wishing to leave, to break free. School is breaking you apart and you still don’t have a boyfriend. He will be here soon. But he won’t be the love of your life, someone will come later in life to fill the gap.

You don’t need to believe you are as ugly as they say you are.

Your face will get it together and your hair, let me tell you, your hair will shine. Not this grease, pack of curls cat maze your have it on. Now we have access to great products that won’t cost an arm to buy it. We have good shampoo and withal the right tools, you can leave the house feeling good about yourself. Nobody will make fun your glasses either.

At some point will you feel so confident, you won’t even bother putting the contacts lenses.Your glasses will actually compliment your nose, because we can’t change science, and the nose will keep growing as we get older.

 

So many things changed and thankfully it did. Life found a way to be fun and worth living. I’m so sorry you feel trapped in your bedroom walls. It won’t be for too long. You will choose a career that will allow you to take on a new path and see the world. Kinda of. 

In a few years you will have the coolest job. The people will be nice to you, and you will finally feel worth it. People from all over the world, friends for life. And someone that at that point will make you believe that he is the love of your life. Hint again: not yet.

Not even close. Your infatuation will mess you up and drive you crazy. For longer than you expect. Hang in there. It’s all a path of learning on how to love yourself and discover who you are.

 

You will be a writer. This love of writing fan fiction will remain, like a constant river. Time will pass and you will hold on to these stories and make sure to never let go. Again. You will have to take the unpaved road to learn how to work, take care of yourself, but you eventually go to creative writing school. In the United States, writing in English. It seems fantastic right? I’ts because it is. All those Hours watching Friends episodes will pay off.

That will lead you to have a blog and something called a channel on the internet. Not quite like MTV, but close.

20 years from now, J-Lo will get back together with Ben Affleck, Gilmore Girls will have a reunion show, and Avril Lavigne still going to be relevant. She is now singing about divorce.We all knew Sk8iter boy a loser all along.

Britney Spears will lose her mind and her freedom. Paris Hilton is now Sliving, still also relevant. All the members of the Backstreet Boy will be married with kids. None of them are yours.

It gets better, I promise.

VHS and DVDs are goin to be in the old box memorabilia somewhere in your mom’s house. I know you are dying to have a DVD player right now and you can’t afford it. In 2022 we will have something called streaming services, where you basically pay a monthly fee and watch movies 24 hours a day. Life is fun, but the fun will be interrupted for two years, because we are going to have a pandemic.

At the beginning will be a virus that’s is coming from China and making everyone sick. Then people start dying, day after day, 100 then thousands, a day. People will be disruptive and fight over everything. Lock people inside of their houses indefinitely and see what happens.

I don’t remember people fighting like in 2002. Which platform they used to be mean to others? It started to look like a school recess, where the bullying scream if they think you are fragile and not easy manipulated. They scream at you because you have a different opinion.

Besides all the drama, all your family members are still alive. Your dad will be back into your life and then get severely ill. Your mom will take over, again. That woman is a beast!

When it comes to friends you will still having the same people in your life, with an addition of a few. Renata, Patrícia, Illy, they are all still there. And so it’s Leticia. You will lose one of your dearest friend along the way. It will crush your soul. It will also change your way to live life. 

Due to so much moving around you don’t have a career. You have jobs. Not the perfect white fenced suburban American house either. Neither Monica’s apartment. After all, New York is the most expensive square ft to live in. They sold you lies. It’s all good. It’s sure does like you live inside your own sitcom.

Your husband’s family are much like “Everybody Loves Raymond!”. Not that invasive, but I’m sure they can’t stand your face. After all you are an immigrant. They don’t seem to accept that fact that you come from somewhere else, other than their church community. You are not what they wanted for their perfect son.

To wrap this up, let me tell you you are happily married. It’s seems impossible to anyone to even like you right now, but he will come along. After all the trash you accepted along the way, until you get to him, he will make it worth it. He actually likes the same songs as you!

He is more like a great value Nick, from the Backstreet Boys, you will get this joke later on. He loves you with all your quirks and perks. So please don’t think you have to change to be accepted. You are just in the wrong side of earth.

 

Hope this letter find you well and comfort you in your worries. Now you can go back to your Brazilian teen magazine and rest assured that your future is bright!

Joana – 2022.

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